with electric love

My homegirl, Tracy, and I were on the phone laughing and "talking stories" when she asked me, "Haaw, why you so nice?!"

I paused in silence. Then I said, "what the hell??!" She then said, "don't get me wrong, you can be the meanest drunk or the grouchiest BITCH... but you ARE really really nice! Like when you're a bitch, you're the biggest bitch. And when you're nice, you're REALLY nice!" HAHAHA... That was the most random question anyone asked me in a long time. I thought about this for days.

Okay, other than anyone waking me up when I don't need to, I really AM nice! I LOVE that I'm nice! I love complimenting others (to those who deserve it of course). I always make sure everyone's happy. I love doing things for people I care about. I put a lot of trust and faith into people. I believe everyone has a good heart. I believe everyone is considered innocent until proven guilty. I believe everyone's cup of water is always half full. Some people may think of "being nice" as a form of weakness, while I only think it as a sign of strength.

A few people told me that I'm TOO nice or TOO friendly like it's a bad thing!?! Why is it so bad to meet new people? Why is it so bad to believe that they are really nice?! Why is it so bad to have some faith and trust?! Why is it so bad to let your guard down for a bit just to have fun?! Why is it bad to treat a few friends with drinks?!? Why waste your life disliking innocent people or being too cautious or even refraining from meeting new people who could possibly be your next lifetime friend? Doing this, you won't be able to REALLY live your life to its fullest so consider yourself a damm boring hermit.

I mean, OK, they've come to you only when they got problems. They talked shit behind your back. They secretly hated you for your achievements and praised you on your failures. They cheated and lied. They spread rumors. They even disrespected you and your family. Basically, you got fucked over - either from a significant other or a friend. I had my share of being naive and gullible which eventually turned into heartache in more ways than one. I've been taken advantage of too. I've been the typical doormat girl. I've been called names. I've even been disrespected. I've been the topic of negative conversation.

This is when you use your inner strength - it's what you do after that matters. Of course I didn't tolerate any of it. I didn't fake the funk either. What did I do? Got mad. Got hurt. Let go. Left it behind. Learned. Laughed. Moved on. And simply just be happy!! Yes, easier said than done... but it's so doable! Just build a bridge and get over it! Just filter out those people who only bring you down. Just don't put too much effort. Just don't expect so much from them next time. Just stay away for how ever long you need to. Just turn and never look back. Just believe in karma. Just go on and LIVE your life! You learn, you move on. Most importantly, don't take the same sitatuation and assume it will repeat itself to the next thing that comes your way. Why waste you precious time and energy advocating your anti-relationship speeches and anti-trust antics?! Just apply it to those that really matter!!!

And those, my friends, are the reasons why I am this NICE!!